This week my circle of life really took a turn around the axis. Sometimes we think we are in control and then the rug is pulled out and we float for a moment and then it is up to us to decide our next move. It is easy to crash to the ground. But what if you take an opportunity like a shift in your stability as a jump off place? This is what I have decided to do. I am going to kick off a new project and it will start with a new blog.
This original site was created for me as a place to write as therapy. I had been writing every chance I could to my therapist and he suggested an alternative. Little did I know how much the writing would help me to grow. I do not know what impact I had on others, but I know I touched a few people.
The reason to write has not lessened. But I am going to change direction in the purpose of my writing. I am a teacher by trade, occupation and my whole being. I have taught formally for years and informally my whole life. It is as natural as breathing for me.
The “There is No Bang” blog was a creation to journal my experience as I went through different modalities of therapy. Now I want to share what I learned. I want to share my healing, which has not come to total fruition, but is and always will be a work in progress.
I am inviting any of my followers to come on over to the newer site at “Out of the Rabbit Hole” I may keep this blog for more personal things such as my photos. I will be sending invites as soon as I get the new site up and running.
I am closing that I loved sharing with you and I hope you will continue to support my efforts at my new site. http://jbartell2013.wordpress.com/
This past couple of weeks has been extremely difficult for a friend and mentor of mine. She has been quite ill. Another bird of a feather too has been having trouble sleeping due to his constant pain. There are many people I know who are having issues of physical pain and lack of sleep because of their discomfort. I am not sure what is going on and I cannot help but wonder if this is in part due to global issues and the negative energy emanating from the strife overseas.
I know chronic pain well as I have Psoriatic Arthritis. It hit me very hard this weekend, rendering me unable to walk. When I went to bed, I was fine and I actually got up at one point in the night without difficulty. In the morning, I could not stand on my right ankle as the pain was excruciating. It was all swollen. I did nothing to cause this. I have never had a flare like this and in never in that ankle. I made my way through the day and hobbled like an old woman. Oh wait, I am an old woman. It kept me up most of the night, but this morning it is better, which is good because I have to work this Sunday.
Why does pain seem so prevalent now? The severity of the medical situations that I am aware of seems to be pretty acute. One person I know has ovarian cancer and several of my coworkers are recently diagnosed with breast cancer. Another coworker just lost her 45 year old husband to cancer. Coworkers are falling and hurting themselves and several are just ill or suffering with chronic pain. It would be interesting to see if there was a way to measure the level of pain in the world right now to see if this is a global phenomenon. Is humanity feeling the discord and suffering caused by the monstrosities occurring in the Middle East?
One theory is that this is a test. As the possibility of global war looms in the future, and as the Quickening approaches, is this a test to see how strong we are? In my opinion, there is nothing more frightening than losing your health or battling with constant pain. If a force wanted to spread terror and weaken their enemy, making them suffer with illness would do it. And negative energy spreads like wildfire, much more easily than positive. We are mentally wired that way unfortunately.
But the strong will survive. I watch my friend with the ovarian cancer joke and laugh as if nothing is happening to her. This is her second round of chemo for it. She did not lose her hair this time. What strength and power she has and it humbles me. We need to focus on the survivors and absorb their power and strength. It gives me courage when I hear of the perseverance and moxie that people demonstrate in the line of fire of chronic and acute illnesses. We need to sing of these heroes. As a collective, we need to embrace and honor these warriors and change the fear to fortitude. We need to hold and comfort our wounded and infirmed and bolster their will power to continue to live without fear or shame. We need to create a shield to protect us from the epidemic of depression which I believe is a major contributor to illness. We need to rise against this onslaught and broadcast positive and healthy energy. Everyone can contribute to this cause.
To my friends and to the world, get better and well. We need you all.